I NOW UNDERSTAND.

The evil of this world makes human beings ask the question “Why?”, a question that no man on earth can fully answer. Every day, people suffer. Some are born into poverty, some into sickness, some into loneliness, rejection, disability, and pain. Many cry in silence while others lose hope completely. At times, the suffering in this world becomes so overwhelming that it plants doubt in the human heart. It makes people wonder whether someone beyond this world is truly paying attention to humanity, whether God really sees the tears of mankind, or whether Heaven remains silent while the earth burns with sorrow.

But one man changed the way I looked at suffering. One man made me understand that God does pay attention, that He does act, and that His ways are beyond human understanding. That man is Nick Vujicic.

Nick Vujicic was born without arms and legs. To many people, his life would appear cursed before it even began. Some would call it unfair. Others would question why a loving God would allow such a thing to happen. Yet this man, without limbs, walks with more joy than many people who possess perfect bodies. He smiles, laughs, inspires nations, preaches faith, and lives with peace in his heart. Instead of drowning in bitterness, he became a light to millions of broken people around the world.

When I was young, I used to hate myself because I was a stammerer. Every time words failed to come out properly, I felt embarrassed and inferior. I compared myself to others who spoke fluently and confidently. Deep inside, I believed I was less than them. I cursed myself in silence and longed for a “perfect” body and a superior identity. The face I showed people was not the real me. Behind it was insecurity, frustration, and anger toward God.

I asked Him why He made me a stammerer. I asked Him why I was born into a poor family while others seemed to have easier lives. I believed God had been unfair to me. My faith was weak, and at times I doubted whether God was truly good.

But the first time I saw Nick Vujicic speak, I felt guilt. I saw a man with no limbs, yet he was smiling. I saw a man with every reason to complain, yet he was grateful. I saw peace in someone who physically lacked almost everything the world considers important. Meanwhile, I had arms, legs, health, and life, yet my heart was full of complaints.

At that moment, it felt as though a voice spoke deep within my soul: “Are you not more blessed than him? You complain because of your stammer, yet I gave you limbs to walk, and hands to touch. He has none of these things, yet he loves Me and worships Me faithfully. To him, I permitted this condition because I wanted him to become a vessel of My glory. But to you, I permitted the stammer because your heart was becoming proud, selfish, and dependent on worldly perfection. Through weakness, I wanted to teach you humility, mercy, and dependence on Me.”

For the first time, I began to understand the deeper meaning behind suffering. I understood that God is perfect in all His ways, even when humans fail to understand Him. Everything He permits carries purpose, even pain. Human beings judge life from the outside, but God sees the soul, the future, and eternity itself.

Some people are created differently because God wants their lives to reveal His glory in a way ordinary lives cannot. People like Nick Vujicic become living testimonies that joy does not come from physical perfection.

God often chooses the weak things of the world to humble the strong. He chooses broken vessels to carry powerful light. Many people with “perfect” bodies are spiritually empty, consumed by pride, lust, greed, and the endless desires of this world. Yet some people who suffer physically develop hearts that are pure, humble, compassionate, and close to God.

That is why I now believe that disabilities carry hidden blessings because God’s attention rests deeply upon such lives. Certain people are shaped differently because Heaven has assigned them a different purpose.

Nick Vujicic once said:

“You can be angry for what you don’t have, or thankful for what you do have. Do your best, and God will do the rest.”

He also said:

“Because I gave my life to the Lord Jesus Christ and experienced the renewing of my mind, I knew that I could become unstoppable.”